A New School Year!

I officially have a 2nd, 5th, and 8th grader! Where did the time go? They were just babies the other day! We are at the end of the first week now, and I must say that things are much better now than Monday. The first day back was very stressful. When you have children that don't like change, then everything changes...chaos ensues. So that morning, everyone's getting dress and we go to get shoes and guess what...yes the brand new Nike's are in the garbage, because well I assume the thought there was, no shoes no school. Well we finally get to school: Chris and Elli are all excited. Isaac refused to speak to anyone. Old teachers or friends are passing him in the hall and he's walking along all sour faced. When we get to his class, he goes on in and doesn't even say bye. But now it's a few days later and he's beginning to get back into the swing of things, so it's all going alittle better, thankfully! Continue to pray for smooth transitions and a great year!

Elli at back to school night

Lunch while school supply shopping

Back to school haircuts

1st day back

Life's Blessings

My beautiful children are my world! I love them dearly and thank God for them everyday. I can truly say I'm one blessed mommy to have my three little angels and I realize that every single day! As the summer draws to an end and the new school year is about to begin, I reminisce over the milestones my little sweethearts have experienced over the last year. They are growing way too fast, so I treasure every boo-boo and skint knee, because I know the day will come when they no longer need mommy's sugar to make it all better, but they will always be my babies. So here's to a wonderful last school year and may the new one bring alot of fun, learning and new experiences that can only help them grow. I love you always and forever Christian, Isaac and Eliana, no matter how big you get, you'll always have my heart!

Old Fashion Day, Hurley 2012

In FYE with Bieber 2012

Easter 2012

Halloween 2011

1st Day of School 2011

Christmas at the Library 2011

Christmas 2011

Renaissance Faire 2011

Mardi Gras 2012

Autism Walk 2012

Autism Walk 2012

Mardi Gras 2012

Coast Con 2012

Elli's sweet pic 2012

Tap Dance Recital 2012

Spring School Photos 2012



Chuck E Cheese 2011



Isaac's 9th b-day 2011

My sweet message from Elli 2012

Elli's 7th b-day 2011

Chris' 13th b-day 2011

Life is complicated!

In just a little over a month, I will be divorced a whole year! It feels horrible and I think more and more that going through with it was the biggest mistake of my life. How can one fix such a horrible wrong? I just think I want to shut down, and chant the famous Scarlett O'Hara mantra, "I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow...." I feel like my life has left me behind and I can't get out of the pain no matter how hard I try or whether I even want too! I put on that famous smile everyday and pretend like everything is okay, but it's not and its never going to be okay again!

Sadness on a Happy Day!

Well, tomorrow is Mother's Day! I know I should rejoice in my three beautiful children that give me the right to celebrate this day. However it is over shadowed by my sadness. This will be my first ever mother's day divorced. It hurts so bad! In my dark place I wonder why holiday's still happen when they all hurt so much now! A constant reminder that he's no longer in my life! He's been a constant part of my life for over half of it, how can I just move forward? I can't! I honestly can't see myself ever actually moving on. It just hurts so much!
                                               ..............Sas

Today's journal entry!

This really should be a happy day. I found out I got the promotion I applied for, I managed to remain very happy all day, warmed by my news! Even making new goals for the rest of the year: to find a new church and to move out of my mom's. However the night is the enemy, as I lay in bed and try to wind down, I think about how much I miss him. Fifteen years all together, just thrown away. I miss his smile, his kiss. I just don't know how everything turned so bad but since he's in the arms of another, nothing can ever be done again! So I just cry, remembering.....
                                                                       Sincerely, Sas

New Year...again!

Well I hand write more than I keep up with this blog and came across an entry I meant to post and haven't, already diminishing my promise in the post to blog more... so here it is!

Well somehow it seems I've managed to turn this into a New Years blog. That wasn't my intention and I will endeavor to do better in the future.

Nevertheless, this is a New Year, even though its into the year more than what I normally post resolutions, It has, however, been a difficult few years. So many things have been neglected. This year I have one main goal and that is to be happy. I've went so long with trying to make others happy that I've forgotten myself. I intend on pursing my own happiness and following that path wherever it may lead me. I won't however, shirk my responsibilities to my children, so no worries! I just want to do what I can to discover what it is that makes me truly happy!

So much has changed, it's time to rediscover me!

New Year

With the New Year, I'm also ringing in another year of my life as I recently turned the dreaded 31. This year brings renewed desire to start my life afresh. I've been feeling so down in the dumps with everything that has happened, that I want to really make that effort for a fresh new start in my thirties. I have learned several things in the past year that will give me that boost.
Mostly that...
I can do this on my own. For over a year now I've been separated and raising three kids all by myself, grant it I'm staying with my mom until I can afford a place of my own, but the point is I made it and I can continue to make it.
Also, I have found a profession that I really love and believe I can make a life long career of. Feb 1st will be a year since I started working as a librarian. My goal is to get my masters so I can get a higher paying position. So I will be heading back to school soon. I've learned I love history and genealogy. I hope to focus on archive's when I do return to school.
Through all of this, I've realized that you can't change people, so don't try to. Just move on with your life, be happy with yourself, and one day everything else will fall into place!

So my New Years resolutions are to:

#1 be happy with myself

#2 get my masters

#3 focus on becoming healthy rather than obsessing over weight

#4 write and read more

#5 Be myself and stop worrying about what others think so much

With all of the sad and frustrating things the past few years have brought, there have also been some really great things too! One of those things are the great new friends I've met through work!

Here's to wonderful moments from 2010, my beautiful kids, and great new friends!