Speaking out...

I've always been pretty out spoken on my dislike of guns. I think this dislike of guns has confused many into believing that this means I am anti-gun. I am not anti-gun and I am 100% for the second amendment. I believe it is the peoples right to defend themselves. My dislike of guns probably stems from the fact that as a teenager, one of my best friends little brothers was accidentally killed while playing with a gun. I do not believe however that this is a reason to do away with guns. If we lived in a sin free world than I could see that no guns would be feasible but we do not. We live in a world of chaos which will only continue to decline until the coming of the Lord. Outlawing guns will only hurt the good people, because the bad people will continue to break the law as they always have.

Growing up, I can't remember a time when my grandfather (mother's side) did not have a gun on his person. He was always cleaning them. It was nothing to have numerous grandchildren running around while this was taking place but no one ever got hurt. As an ex 82nd airborne division in the army (Korean War Veteran), my grandfather instilled in us the knowledge that guns were always to be assumed loaded and were not toys.

There is alot of argument over whether automatic guns should be allowed and here's my argument for that. When we Americans first gained our independence as a country over a tyrannical government, it was achieved because the people still had what was the times version of an automatic rifle. We are facing hard times. We are facing a world that wants to take those freedoms we once fought for. Even our founding fathers spoke about this...

"A free people ought not only be armed and disciplined, but they should have sufficient arms and ammunition to maintain a status of independence from any who might attempt to abuse them. Which would include their own government." - George Washington

"The strongest reason for the people to retain the right to keep and bear arms is, as a last resort, to protect themselves against tyranny in government." - Thomas Jefferson

"Any society that would give up a little liberty to gain a little security will deserve neither and lose both" - Benjamin Franklin

My great great great grandfather (father's side) immigrated to this country in 1793 and was friends with Thomas Jefferson. I wonder how he would feel about the world today, if he would disappointed!

Both of my grandfathers fought for this country, one in the Korean War and one in World War II. Along with great grandfathers in the Civil War, etc... We need to stop demeaning what these men fought for and what our soldiers are still out there fighting for everyday!!!

What we need to realize is that, guns don't kill people, people kill people. If we better educate people than our world might be alittle bit different. Not only do we not educate the people, but we spend our time trying to change history. The old saying is, a people who doesn't learn from history is doomed to repeat it, well how much worse off will a people be that tries to change their history to their liking.

The signs of the times are here. Wake up, if you don't  know Jesus Christ as your personal savior, start seeking him today!

                                                               Just my voice, Sasha

Just the way you are!

Isaac and I was having a discussion tonight about babies in mommies tummies, (not sure what brought it on) he seemed already well informed but curious. After several normal questions and answers, out of the blue he said, 'do babies who are born with Autism get it from the umbilical cord?' I said, 'sweetie, they don't really know what causes Autism.' He just sat there thinking, so I said, 'maybe someday you'll become a great scientist and figure it out.' And he just smiled and said, 'maybe I will!'

I can remember when he was first diagnosed with Autism, we were devastated but now I see him for what he truly is, he's so very bright and so different in such a wonderful way. It's who he is, who they are, and I can understand why Temple Grandin said that if someone gave her a cure, she wouldn't take it.
Because let me say, my babies are perfect just the way they are!

                                                                                                    ~Sincerely, Sas



“I am different, not less ” 

“In an ideal world the scientist should find a method to prevent the most severe forms of autism but allow the milder forms to survive. After all, the really social people did not invent the first stone spear. It was probably invented by an Aspie who chipped away at rocks while the other people socialized around the campfire. Without autism traits we might still be living in caves.” 
― Temple Grandin

New Year's again...

It's seems like New Year's resolution time seems to always be looming. I feel like I always make all of the same resolutions that I never seem to keep, mainly 'lose weight'. This year, I've decided not to focus so much on resolutions and just focus on trying to find a happier, healthier me. I know that doesn't sound like much, but it is big. I've realized that for quite some time, I've been really beating myself up over something that was out of my hands. Earlier today I posted this on facebook...

The more people tell me I'm better off, the more I realize the real problem is forgiving myself! So that's my New Years res, letting go and letting God!

So, I received responses like, what do you have to forgive yourself for, you didn't do anything wrong, you did what you had to do.

But you see, that's just it. I did it. I actually asked for the divorce. I was the one that actually went against my beliefs and standards as a christian and asked for the divorce. Sure I was justified, sure my life was in the worst possible place, sure I was protecting my children and myself, but nevertheless, I actually did it. And I've literally hated myself for it. I've spent the last year and a half reassuring myself through scripture,

(But if the unbelieving depart, let him depart. A brother or a sister is not under bondage in such cases: but God hath called us to peace. 1 Cor 7:15)

And I can truly say, I was not at peace. I gave him chance after chance. And you might say, but if you asked for the divorce, how was the unbeliever the departing one. Well because, his actions proved he didn't want us, he wanted out but just didn't want to be the one to do it. Yes, he did hurt me in so many ways I can't even begin to describe, but I still say, nevertheless...

Nevertheless, my heart hurts. I remember the good and think, I should have clinged to that. I see happy families and wonder what have I deprived my babies of. I see just how much worse he's gotten and wonder if it was my fought. Did I give up too soon? I know what you're all saying, because many of you have told me personally... You did give it your best, your all, much more than most. Yet I still hear my babies cries, mommy, why can't y'all get back together. How does one handle that, the pain can be overwhelming.

I've watched him, with her, ever since our divorce and I know that he thinks he is happy in his life without God (a man who used to walk with God close enough to preach His word), and I know I could never be.  (then reason for inevitability)
I need God, everyday, every waking moment. My Lord and savior is everything. And if something so horrible as divorce is what it took to remind me of that, then so be it.
So this year, I've resolved to focus on God. On restoring my life for my children and myself, and most importantly,
learning to forgive myself, learning to let go, learning to let God. Because above all else, I know God has a plan for my life and He would never place more on me than I can handle.

I pray and ask you all to pray with me, that God gives me the strength to handle this endeavor. I know I'll still have bad days, but in those days, let me be reminded that God is for me and my kids.

That we can have a brighter 2013 and future!

~ Sincerely,
   Sasha